Day #4 - Seized by the itch...

Yesterday was turning out like it did, before I even realised it was happening. I heard a story once about a bipolar chap whose wife always knew he had a spell of mania coming on when he would get out of the car with a pile of "stuff" that he had bought - all not really needed but that is how it can go. Stephen Fry - himself bipolar - stated once in something that I saw on TV, that he ended up buying two or more iPads when they arrived on the market, "just in case" - or something like that. I didn't go mad but I did buy a small camera second hand thinking that it was going to be the best bargain ever. It turns out I actually paid over the odds. I'll get my money back though so it is cool. Often when one is elevated it gets like that. I used to be like that with books. Once I swapped a guitar for a wind generator to be used for a boat. I don't have a boat. It was just one of those things that you can end up doing when you are manic or elevated. I've had to re-learn my lesson.

Things got off to a late start yesterday - again - I went to town to get some shopping but the worst of it was all of the people that seemed to be either staring into a shop window or at their phones. I don't think I walked straight in any particular direction for more than a metre - that's just over a yard to non-metric folks. It was winding me up by the second. I tried to stay positive and I think that the combination of that and the density of crowds - along with the weather just wound me up. I didn't go spend crazy but the camera was symptomatic of how it can get.

The other thing is "senior moments" - we all get sidetracked and there is no better sidetracker than ADD but I was pouring cereal into my teacup, went into the next room to get "something" only to find I had forgotten what it was and when I did remember it was in a different room entirely. This sort of thing is a bit alarming but it could well be alcohol withdrawl. I am still working on making it better. Eating pretty well and trying to keep my mind occupied with productive stuff.

The other crazy thing that is happening is the crazy itching that I get on my back during the evenings. I don't know what it is but hopefully it will subside further - it has  been getting better but it is still a bit confusing.

So. Anything positive to say? I guess that I am reasonably pleased with my efforts so far. I cannot seem to get my discipline in order when it comes to Morse though - it would be great to be doing it in a class or with others - at least that way one would be able to guage ones' own progress. I'll try to get back on it later today for 15 minutes. I'll tell anyone though, it is HARD. The other good thing that happened was that I picked up a guitar to repair for a friend. It is reassuring when someone trusts you like that. I will do my best to make it as good as possible. It's only a cheap one but it IS a Strat so it will get all the love I can give it.

In spite of the crap weather here today I intend to go for a sit on the beach later - after dinner. Try and clear my head which feels as thick as a whale sandwich*.

Right ho folks, the water is hot and the dishes need washing. See ye later.

* Stolen from "Blackadder".