Day #17 - What happened?

Well, I should have written this every day this week but, like it has been for a while, I have been getting very sidetracked. I have been lucky enough to have a loan of a van for a week and it has been great. There isn't really a downside apart from having had so much to do I have been looking at the blogger dashboard and saying to myself; "Ah sure, I'll tackle it in the morning..." etc. etc...

Life is quick and when you are busy it seems to go faster. I feel a bit miffed though as I have managed to get very little done in the overall scheme of things. Unanswered emails, places to go and stuff to do. It all piles up. I have been aware that I have been a bit tardy with the blog but I will try and manage my time better and not be up looking at datasheets for some electronic thing until after 3:00am. Better to stick to the plan.

With an elevated mood, one can get very hyper about getting so much done. The fact of the matter is that with that "artificial cliff face" it can cultivate despondency. It doesn't help that the keyboard on my old computer is getting a bit tired.

Tomorrow, I am pleased to say that my Mother will be coming home after a couple of weeks of respite care. I still haven't transformed the house to the extent that I wanted but I am getting there slowly.

I think that the importance of blogging is good for the plan as it helps establish a routine and can then, as a result, motivate to a greater extent to get stuff done.

I met two "friends" last night - let's call them Dick and Ratso - their veneer of sincerity was so thin that you could read a book through it. It is something that many years of person - to - person interaction can help you with. I have a grade "A" bullshit detector and man, these guys had the needle going into the red. I tought about it a lot and I realised that  THEY are the idiots with the problem. John Lennon wrote; "They hate you if you're clever, and they despise a fool!" - I'm inclined to agree.

I was slightly pissed off by the amount of energy that they seemed to invest in "being nice" it was only this afternoon that I was given some sound advice by someone that I didn't expect it from. This particular man used to be a pretty wild chap. He was actually totally bonkers and had a superb track record in that area. He knocked the booze on the head about five years back and he told me that after five years his life is utterly transformed. He reassured me about begrudgery and explained that the reason that so few people that are not living to their full potential take out their feelings of inadequacy and resentment on those that are making an effort is that is what THEY would like to be able to do. Instead of climbing they pull others down to create some kind of perverse equilibrium. Their own insecurities fuel this. It may sound obvious but it is also quite sad. I feel sorry for Ratso and how he depends upon Dick for props but the saddest of them all is Dick because he truly lives up to his name in spite of himself.

There are also those that play games - and I have mentioned this before - to cultivate trust and then piss all over your back when it is turned. The desire to be "seen" to be good natured and friendly by others whilst persuing their own hateful agenda is a bit evil.

Simple analysis of language can offer many insights, like as Orwell described; "...the overelaborate embellishments of the unskilled liar". Whether we choose to embrace or ignore the assholes of the world is up to us. The sure thing is that if you acquiesce to their nonsense through the uninformed benevolence of your own better nature you are essentially, playing into their hands. To quote a great teacher - "Life is too short to take on the unnecessary!" , again I am inclined to agree.

I have done some shopping and have a few other small jobs to do but after that I am going to do an audit on "the plan" and see if I can sharpen things up a bit. Time is ticking and I must make the most of it. Please excuse me dear reader if this hasn't been the most electrifying of posts, but the condensed explanation that I have offered and perhaps, the readers' willingness to sit through the "boring" part  of the movie will make the next bits a bit juicier. Goodness knows I don't want to become that walking contradiction in terms by spending months writing about idiots and how much they can bother someone.  I want to write stuff that makes people smile - myself included. Happy Friday!!!